A mother and a daughter had a fight about something at the
family Christmas gathering one year. Both were deeply hurt by the other and
both vowed never to speak to each other again. As the years passed the reason
for the fight faded but the hurt caused by it never did. Other family members
tried to get the two to reconcile but both were too suborn to relent.
One day, out of the blue, the daughter got a phone call.
Through tears her sister delivered the message that their mother had passed.
For the moment the daughter felt a twinge of sadness but that was quickly
replaced as the flames of hatred flared. The daughter refused to go to the
funeral and avoided any contact with her family as they laid their mother to
rest.
As the mother approached the gates of heaven she was met by
Saint Peter.
“Welcome Martha,” Saint Peter said. “Unfortunately, I cannot
let you in at this time.”
“What? Why not?” she asked worriedly.
“Only perfect love can enter into these gates,” he replied.
“But I love Jesus,” she exclaimed.
“You do but there is another that you have spite for in your
heart.”
The mother thought for a moment. “You mean my daughter?” she
asked with surprise.
“Yes,” he said. “That spite in your heart is a poison and
you are not allowed in heaven with poison in your heart.”
“What can I do about that now? I am dead,” she said as she
began to sob.
“All you can do is wait.”
“You have heard
that the ancients were told, ‘You shall not commit murder’ and ‘Whoever commits
murder shall be liable to the court.’ “But I say to you that
everyone who is angry with his brother shall be guilty before the court; and
whoever says to his brother, ‘You good-for-nothing,’ shall be guilty before the
supreme court; and whoever says, ‘You fool,’ shall be guilty enough to go into the fiery
hell. “Therefore if you are presenting your offering at the altar, and there
remember that your brother has something against you, leave your
offering there before the altar and go; first be reconciled to your brother,
and then come and present your offering.” – Matthew 5: 21-24
Heaven is a place of perfect,
sacrificial love. Nothing short of this perfect love is permitted in heaven.
Even the angels who have lost this love were cast out of heaven. When we die
the soul is separated from the body and heads to either heaven or hell based
upon the particular judgment. If there is love for Jesus in your heart you are
destined for heaven and if no love for Jesus can be found a fiery abyss awaits
you.
So, you love Jesus. You have made
an altar call and have recited the Sinner’s Prayer. Many cradle Catholics have
no idea what that sentence means and many converts are shaking their heads in
acknowledgement. You are all set. You
are in like flint. When you approach the gates of heaven, however, you find
them locked. What gives?
Quite simply, heaven is a place
of perfect, sacrificial love. We don’t get to enter heaven the person we are on
earth. None of us, no matter how good or holy we are, have that perfect love
for everyone. This creates a dilemma for the non-Catholic Christian who only
believes in heaven and hell. Does God just snap his fingers in a Thanos like
fashion and make a person love perfectly? That would certainly go against free
will. If he would do that at the moment of our death he certainly could do that
during our time on earth. Oh what a beautiful place this could be if he did
that for everyone. It would almost be like….heaven.
The problem is that love cannot
be forced. It can only be accepted by free choice. So, for love to exist there
has to be something other than love to choose from. These are all of the things
we choose before we choose God. These are all of the things that separate us
from God and each other. These other things are what control our lives. These
are the things that become the true gods of our lives.
Catholicism teaches us about
another place. This is a place where you go when you are destined for heaven
but do not have the perfect love in your heart required to enter through the
gates. This place is called purgatory. It is the place where the fire of God’s
love purges away all that is not perfect within us. It is the place where we
freely let go of the other gods that control our life. It is the place where we
are made perfect so we can be in the presence of perfection itself.
One of the things that we have to
let go of before entering heaven are our grudges against other people. You
cannot have perfect love for someone if you are holding something against them.
If grudges keep us out of heaven when we die it is to our own best interest to
purge ourselves of them while we are still here on earth. This is why we are
told to reconcile with our brother. Forgiveness becomes our greatest tool and strongest
liberator. Hate is a poison that shackles us in slavery. Forgiveness is the key
that unlocks our fetters.
If grudges are such a bad thing
it is better to not let them develop to begin with. We live at a time where
everyone seems to be offended by everything everyone else says or does. Taking
offence to something is the first step to creating a grudge. If you do not
allow yourself to be offended it becomes much harder to hold contempt for
someone in your heart. Practice sacrificial love instead. Sacrificial love is
willing the best for a person without any expectation of something in return.
Think of Christ on the cross praying for those who were pounding the nails
through his hands. Think of Saint Stephen praying for those who were hurling
stones at his head.
When someone says something untruthfully
terrible about you don’t be angered by it. Pray for them instead. When someone
back stabs you, throws you under the bus, steals, lies, or does any sort of
evil thing against you, forgive them. Pray for them. Love them.
The more we imitate the love of
Christ, even imperfectly, in this world the easier he will be able to perfect
that in us in the next.
Make 2019 the year where you fill
your heart with love and make it impossible for anyone to offend you.
